Chapter 1

I'll never forget the date: Dec 12, 2003. It was a friday night. The weather was cold and breezy. El jaw (3la golat kel b7raini) mal tdyt. It was my first time going out with my friends after I broke up with Khalid. 


Even though I didn't feel like going out, Samar insisted that I do. 


Samar: Short black hair, tanned, tall, thin but not skinny, attractive but not beautiful. Mafy a6yab mnha, she's always been there when I needed her.
Sarah: Long brown curly hair, gorgeous, tanned, and petite. jameeela, tilfit entibah el kil no matter where we are. 9ij rfeejty bs jamlha sabab '3roorha. 
Noora: A bit chubby, short brown curly hair, not tall not short, tanned, and funny, she ALWAYS makes me laugh and feel better when Im down.


Samar, Sarah, and Noora have been my best friends since school, kibrna o trbaina m3a b3a'9. I love them to death!! 


As of for me, my name is Maryam, I'm also not so tall but not short. I'm thin but not skinny, I have long brown wavy hair, tanned skin, 3yoni wsaa3, have dimples and big lips. 
As of my personality, eli ey3rfny eygool 3ani 6ayba bs 3aneeda, of course like every other capricorn. I don't get along with everyone awal ma I meet them, so I'm not so good with socializing like Samar and Noora. I have wonderful parents that I love and respect SO MUCH! I have 1 brother and no sisters (who needs sisters when you have friends like mine).


Samar: yallaa 3ad maryoom! kelha chamin sa3aa o raj3een goomy n'3yer jaw, basich k2aba! 
Me: Malee 5lig a6la3, a7is rou7i ma5nooga o a5af a6la3 o achoofa!!!
Sarah: etchoofeen min ya 7a'9i? Khalid?????? hal tkider 3al fa'9y, law yftkir bngool m3laih tkdray! 
Samar: SARAH!!
Sarah: wallaah ma gelt ela el 9ej. sorry 7bebty bs the truth hurts


I love Sarah bs sometimes I feel like killing her, if it's something not about her ttklam min doon ma tra3y sh3oor '3airha!


Me: bsss 5ala9 5alooni ga3da, o ento roo7aw
Samar: La wallah mb ray7een bdoonich!
Sarah: ento 5alkum o ana barou7, wh shly bel nikad (laughing)
Samar: SARAAAH!!
Sarah: at'3shmar wh! la wallaah maryoom mo ray7een bdoonich


Noora comes in..


Noora: OOOOH SARO! bu el shabab 3indna el youm! 
Sarah: waaaaai '97kteni


Me and Samar laughing, she always hated it when Noora referred to her as a guy.


Noora: 5air shfeeekum mtrb3een ma jhztaw?
Sarah: Wallah s2lay b3'9 el nas, mkdreen rou7hum 3ashan eli madaraw 3anhum!
Noora: Agool bs ekly 5arach! Yallaa maryoomaa 3indach 10 minutes tjhzeen na6reenach fl sayraa, 6al3tna ma t7laa ela weyach! 
Me: (7sait bel thnb a5af ecancelon 3ashany) okk bs ma n6wel? wallah maly 5lg bs bayey 3ashnich enty o Samar
(Sarah acting as if she didn't hear what I said) 
Noora: Afaa 3alaich bs entay meta ma b'3eetay enrid! kelha nakel lna 3asha o raj3een
Me: okk yalla bagoom ajhez 


After what i've been through with Khalid, my friends have been trying everything to cheer me up! ya 7laaailhum I love them so much!!! bs the pain is still there. 


Ma kan ly 5lg at3dal wala albs, so lbst 3bayty o r7t lhum el sayara..


Sarah: MA9DIG MA9DIG!! tt6nzain 9a7? btsheeleen hal 3byaa a7een 9a7?
Samar (grabbing me): emshyy ya mama, lat7atoon ana al7een balbs'ha o raj3een lkum 


10 minutes later nzlna ana o Samar, bs this time I was wearing a short black dress with black stockings, black high heels, a beige jacket, and red lipstick! 


Sarah: EEE al7een sh7lwach! 


Samar kanat mswya reservation fl Ritz. Since it was a friday, el m63am kan Z A 7 M A ! 
Our table was not so far away from the bar.  


El bnat dasheen deep f salfaa, o ana sar7na afker eb Khalid. While thinking about him tmait altft 3al awdem, atmna achoofa bainhum, aby achoofa bs maby!! GOD I MISS HIM SO MUCH! 


looking around, 6awla kelha ajneb yshrbon, 6awla 3alaiha 5aljyeen yshrboon, min bainhum 3wa2il tt3sha eb hdoo2, o bnat yftroon min bain el 6awlat looking for guys to take them home


On the right, all I can see are eyes staring right at me....